It's been so long

WOW, happy 2009 people!! I can't believe it's been so long since i've wrote anything. SO much has happened to me [Good, and Bad].
Family is doing great.
Relationships have diminished horribly[lies, cheaters, heart breakers].
Work is the same[Ugh]
I have alot on my plate right now, new things happening and happening FAST...
I will try to post more frequently this year, so until the next time, Live.Love.Life.

.:::Update:::.

Well it has been sometime since I've last sat down and wrote so this entry might be a tad bit longer then normal....... Ready? here we go..... So I'm back to work again, [sucks right? yea i know.] I had become content with just my small part-time job, yet with Ty'rell's birthday, then Christmas slowly approaching i thought that maybe i should go ahead and accept the //plea bargain\\. So far, everything is going O.K. Kevin is delighted that I'm back because the //idiots\\ he tried to find to replace me failed {{horribly}}. My dedicated and loyal customers are happy as well and continue to greet me with praise. Only ones who aren't that happy are my new co-workers. They don't seem to understand where i came from, and why i just jumped in like i had never left. [Ha] What idiots! It's the same as driving a car.[once you learn it, you'll never forget it.] So their pissed, yet I myself am [unhappy] too. This is not the lifestyle i see myself in, never have, which is why i had quit this job back in April, but times get rough, money gets funny, and jobs in Michigan were being phased out, so i felt as if this was my last and only resort. At least until i am able to return to school again. Not these bullshit ass trade schools either. I know you've seen the commercials ["Training in less then 15 months", "College isn't right for me", "Job Placement Assistant" ] That shit is some BULLSHIT!! If i had listened to my aunt i would have never wasted my time, my effort, and let alone my MONEY, in one of those school where i graduated TOP OF MY CLASS, yet am still unable to find a decent career in my field. Oh sure, you look in the papers and there are a [million and one] ad's listed for MA's all around the state. Do you know how much most Medical assistants make? The salary is horrible for the amount of time and training you spent learning the skill, not only that, but your requirements are endless! hell, you might as well be the doctor cause the only thing you don't do it diagnosis and write actual prescriptions. So this time I'm going to make sure i do things the right way, the way i should have when i was acepted to 3 very good colleges right after high school, yet chose to be juvenile and bullshit my blessings away. I [wont] make the same mistake twice. So with God willing I [Will] be returning to OCC this spring semester.


Moving on................


So me and [Jeff] have decided to move on and go our separate ways relationship wise..... This has been a 2 year relationship that has seemed like it's been in a stand still since we reunited. We were together so long ago[when i was 18] then we lost communication and reunited 2 years ago, but it's been so hard being with someone who has told me since the beginning that he is [not] willing to allow a relationship to come into his life right now, i didn't know that right now would last this long, so i had to let it go....... Do i love him? I can't say that i [Love] him, but i do have feelings for him. I can't seem to just go [cold turkey]. We talk everyday and i feel that it's more of just a friendship, which if i think about it, thats what it was the entire time, just with [sex]. Who was i kidding? i guess myself only huh? As time goes on, i know these feelings will become less and less evident so that i can continue to move on with myself and with my new found interest...........


Charlie........


Wow, this has really come to a shock to me that this is real, but it seems so right! I'm so nervous that i feel that we jumped into this way too soon, but i feel that when it's right it's right so why wait? After being with someone for so long with no progression i feel that this is going at a beautiful pace! Oh wait, you don't know who [Charlie] is do you? Well honestly[i know this is gonna sound weird] we've known each other since the age of 5, dig that! Through the [magic] of Facebook, we where flung at each other like snowballs, now our snowball is rolling and gaining more and more mass everyday as we learn about each others lives, thoughts and feelings. He has been such a support system for me and I feel so blessed to have him now, so blessed that I'm willing to do anything i have to do to make sure that this feeling lasts! With Jeff, i never felt as comfortable, never felt that if i had some thing i needed to discuss and get off my chest would i have been able to do so with him. So i bottled up, and talked to my best friend, i wrote, and i even [stepped outside the box], which while on the subject I'll discuss with you.........

Conrad.........................

Man, Conrad caught me at a very low[weak] moment, and his style was just too attractive! I've always had a problem with being attracted to [bad boys][hoods][dope men] whatever you choose to call him, and his style was so much as theirs, yet he was NONE of that! He was just a real ass nigga, who liked to have fun and hung around his inner circle of friends and family[which was alot]. Conrad had my head sprung, and my nose wide open, but it was always me trying to juggle him and Jeff around to the point that neither ever knew about each other. But Conrad had some shit going on that to this day i never knew about myself. I mean when it was me and him or me him and his people shit was great! but it would be times that he would disappear, sometimes weeks would go by, and i wouldn't see or hear from him at all, which lead me to believe that he himself was living a double life, yet his tracks weren't as clean as mines. Outta nowhere one night while i was out with some friends my phone rings [Kendrick Conrad] shows on the caller ID, I answer longing to hear this excuse of the longest disappearing act ever, thinking its gonna involved jail. He continues to tell me that his Father, Grandfather, and Grandmother, had all passed away back to back. I offer my condolences and leave the matter where it lays. Sometimes i would sit and wonder what life would have been like with him, then i quickly come back to my senses, he was never right for me, not even for me to step out of a situation that wasn't the greatest in itself [HE] wasn't worth it......That wasn't so hard to leave in the past...........

With that last statement "Leave in the past" Being said.......

This whole post came to mind after he watching ["The Best Man"] today..... Taye Diggs character was involved with a friend from college many years before the present date of the movie, yet him and that college love interest never moved on and he wondered [What if?] He was presently involved with a wonderful woman who was supportive and with him through everything he needed for the last 2 years they had been dating, yet he was so curious about that [What if?] situation with the college friend that he almost lost everything he had put his effort into building up. I can't do that...I can't allow myself to live in the past any longer. I can't risk throwing something so promising out the window for something that has kept me in the [shadows]. Time is moving, and so shall I. Frontwards bound only........

-CraKk-

[FREE T.I]!!!!

Rapper T.I. was arrested in Atlanta yesterday [October 13] by agents of the Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, Firearms and Explosives (ATF) after he allegedly attempted to purchase three machine guns and two silencers from an undercover agent, acting as an arms dealer.

In addition to the three machine guns found in his College Park home, police also recovered six additional firearms from a closet in the rapper's house.

T.I. has been charged with felony possession of unregistered machine guns and silencers and possession of firearms by a convicted felon.

According to U.S. Attorney David E. Nahmias, T.I. allegedly sought to purchase an unregistered machine gun, as well as numerous other weapons.

T.I. allegedly paid almost a total of $21,000 in cash to his bodyguard to purchase over 25 firearms on his behalf.

The bodyguard, who was acting as a cooperating witness, told agents that he was purchasing the machine guns on T.I.'s behalf because the rapper is a convicted felon.

The man, who had been employed since July 2007, allegedly purchased nine weapons for the rapper as well as one weapon on behalf of another, unnamed individual.

The bodyguard purchased a total of nine weapons for T.I. and 17 for others on behalf of T. I., because of his prior felony conviction, which prevents him from legally owning firearms.

"Machine guns pose a serious danger to the community, which is why they are so carefully regulated," said David E. Nahmias, United States Attorney for the Northern District of Georgia. "The last place machine guns should be is in the hands of a convicted felon, who cannot legally possess any kind of firearm. This convicted felon allegedly was trying to add several machine guns to an already large and entirely illegal arsenal of guns. Thanks to the good and quick work of ATF, he is now in custody and his firearms have been seized."

The bodyguard, acting as a Confidential Witness [CW] placed a series of phone calls to T.I., which were recorded by the ATF.

The CW called T.I. and said "he had everything," referring to machine guns he was allegedly supposed to purchase on behalf of the rapper.

On October 12, T.I. called the CW and ordered him to deliver the weapons yesterday [October 13].

"This investigation developed very quickly," said Vanessa McLemore, Special Agent in Charge of ATF's Atlanta Division. "We learned only this Wednesday that the cooperating witness was allegedly buying the machine guns for Harris. The cooperating witness told Harris on Thursday that he had obtained the items, and on Friday Harris made it clear that he wanted them delivered to him today. Harris then agreed to meet and took possession of the machine guns this afternoon. He now faces serious federal charges and a potentially long prison sentence."

T.I. will remain in federal custody until Monday, October 15, when he will appear before US Magistrate Judge Alan J. Baverman at the United States Courthouse in Atlanta.

-CraKk-

You sick bastard you!!!!!

The South Beach club promoter arrested for allegedly having unprotected sex with a woman and not telling her he was HIV positive had bond set at $100,000, because prosecutors believe he is a threat to public safety.

Prosecutors believe Elidor Kersaint was planning to have sex with more unknowing women, despite his arrest. Documents obtained by CBS4 News shows how they asked the judge to increase his bond. However, Kersaint had already posted a lower bond and bailed out of jail when the increase went into effect. Weeks later officers tracked him down and rearrested him.

Miami Beach police are asking that women who had unprotected sex with him to come forward; 22-year old Kersaint is HIV positive and is accused of knowingly spreading the disease to his sex partners.

Wednesday night CBS4 News spoke to some of his colleagues, who didn't want to talk on camera. They say Kersaint has been living with HIV all his life; his mother passed it on to him. However, they say they didn't find out about his status until the days leading up to his arrest.

One 20-year-old woman has already told Miami Beach police she had contact with Kersaint.

According to his MySpace page, Elidor Kersaint paints himself as a pretty popular guy on the South Beach scene who might have promoted himself in clubs including Opium, Prive, and Mansion. Representatives from the Opium Group say Kersaint was not an employee, but he may have worked with any number of third party vendors.

"I can unequivocally confirm that this individual is not an employee of the Opium Group," said Opium Group representative Vanessa Menkes in a written statement to CBS4.

On his MySpace page, there are dozens of pictures of him posing with club going celebs, and countless pictures of him with half naked women.

But police say Kersaint had a dark secret.

"He carries a 'pretty big stick' here in Miami Beach which is attractive for some people," said Bobby Hernandez with the Miami Beach Police Department. "Unfortunately he could have used that big stick, or attractiveness, to lure these women in to have sex with them and unbeknownst to them he has HIV."

The one woman who came forward told investigators she had sex with Kersaint on two occasions and he never told her he had HIV. Police fear there may be other women who had sex with Kersaint and are not aware that he was HIV positive. Miami Beach police are urging anyone who had a relationship with Kersaint to see a doctor and then contact police.

Kersaint, who has been locked up since last June, faces a minimum of five years in prison if convicted

-------ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS!?!?!?!?! ---------

This Man has just sentenced this woman to DEATH and all you give his is a 5 year sentence!?!? I can't stress how unfair this is!!! Reading this has truly made me sick to my stomach!!



I can't even continue to blog on this.........PLEASE everyone be careful! Just cause they "look nice" or are "popular" or "famous" doesn't mean they are SAFE!!!!!!!

-CraKk-

Annoyed......

I have come to the realization that i get pissed every easily. What you say? Yes, i know I'm 26. I mean sure, I've known forever that I can a bit of a hot-head. BUT now, it seems like things that didn't bother me when i was younger, PISSES me the fuck off now.

-----Examples-----

Juvenile acting men.

Oh sure, in high school it was fun to be friends with or be around the class clown, but at 26 it's just horribly annoying! I mean sure, I can take a joke BUT the bullshit can only go so far before I'm at me wits end cussing you out.

Clubs

Yep I said it! Clubs! And not only the clubs, but the people who do the promotions.

I mean don't get me wrong, though i haven't been to a club in a few weeks or so,

I do still enjoy a nice party.

Key word is NICE.

I mean i don't like the shit where EVERYONE got on a white tee,

ALL the guys are 18-21(or act it)

ALL the girls are tricks and tramps .

Or rats and hoochies .

Facebook/Myspace Rappers

My LORD!!!!!!!! Please please once again this used to be something that was entertaining, Yet now has become a hassle. "New Friend Request". ......"Oh blah, just another 'Myspace Music Page/Facebook local loser"

Not only have these things been annoying me lately, but the fact when I address the subject, I hear the "Oh you trippin, Oh you don't mean that" bullshit. FUCK, if these signs mean that I'm just growing up, and acting my age, ..........Then so be it. But i wish that the rest of you would do it too.

-CraKk-

2 weeks already???

WOW! has it really been two weeks already since my last post? Sorry to delay everyone from keeping up with me, but honestly hasn't been really too much to report.

Ty'rell is doing well in school.

.:(Thank God!):.

My nephew David, well, that's David. A 13 year old horomone who thinks he's God's gift to every girl age 13-16.

.:smh:.

Rashonia still in the hospital and i really miss my friend
=(
Ty'Rell missing her and Jonathan too now cause he been asking is she ok.

Me, honestly, i've just been chillin'.

Looking for a new job still.

.:Hopefully things work out with my interview i took the other day(cross your fingers):.

Still Single.

Still Sexy.

Still -CraKk-.

Don't worry, those 3 will never change.

-CraKk-

Day 1 of Kindergarten

Look at that SMILE!!

=)!!!!
He looks too trilled to be starting his first day of school.
And he was!
So was I, even though i did shed a tear or two when I got back to the car,
I knew he would be fine.
I mean not like he hasnt been in daycare since he was 1 anyways,
But this is REAL school!!
Not my neighbor who runs a daycare from home directly across the street.
He didnt cry.
Hell he didn't even give me a hug and kiss goodbye.









V
So school lets out at 3:15pm.
I was there, but traffic trying to get into parking lot was horrible!!!
So i decided to call my 13 year old nephew.
I told him to go stand with Ty'Rell so that he wouldn't wonder why no one was there yet.
Comes to find out,
Ty'Rell is NOT with his group and teacher!!
Being new to this "Real School Shit"
I fucking PANIKED!
The teacher is telling me that Ty'Rell was picked up already.
Picked up!?! The HELL!?!
by who!?







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Come to find out Ty'Rell was not picked up
(they beter thank GOD he wasnt!)
He was in the gym, with latchkey kids.
Even though his name was NOT on the list to go to latchkey!
Why the hell didn't that ignorant ass kindergarten double check her list!?
And why the hell would she say someone picked him up already,
When he was in the gym!?
It's like she really didn't know WHERE THE FUCK he was at all!?!
Do you have ANY idea how fucking scarey that shit is!?!
I do now.
Yes, as most of you know who know me.
I showed my ass.
and all that whore could say was she was sorry
&
that it wouldn't happen again.
She would have been REALLY sorry and UNEMPLOYED,
If my kid was missing.
>=/

-CraKk-